May 24, 2008

“What truly IS the meaning of life???”

(photo is of me and my brother when we were little ones)

Well as you can see, I am slowing but surely getting the site updated. What can I say, I’ve been a very busy woman dealing with work and a lot of family issues. To be honest, it’s been a rough and stressful couple of months. Which has caused me to be very emotional and sometimes overly sensitive. I’ve been dealing with the fact that someone I love is very ill and it’s breaking my heart to see them suffering and there’s nothing I can do but be strong.

Be strong!!! I would like to know when did it get to the point that woman aren’t suppose to cry. I thought that was something only men were told not to do. Now today as women, we are told to be strong and show no weakness. If you cry you are weak??!!! What a bunch of bullshit!!! I’m not one who likes to hold her emotions in or try to dismiss them . I’ve tried but it only made me an angry individual. So If I feel like crying, I’m going to cry because in the end it makes me feel better and stronger.

I would write more because I do have a lot to report but at this moment with it being 1 o clock in the morning, I’m feeling a bit sleepy. So nighty, nite until. . .

February 21, 2008

“The greatest enemy of man is not disease - it’s despair”.

Hey Everyone,

I know it’s been awhile. Things have been a bit hectic, OK maybe a lot hectic. You should see all the gray hairs I have to dye. . .lol. Seriously though, things have been quite busy for me and it looks as it’s going to be even busier for me the next couple of months with moving from a moderate home with a lot of land in the country to a bigger home with less land in the sub-burbs. Which means I have to have to put off finishing my designs a little while longer. Not to worry, I will be doing photo shoots in between. Had to cancel a few recently because I became ill with whatever is going around.

There seems to be no rest for the weary. There are times where I would sit back and think to myself who’s life is this? Do you ever get the feeling that you’re living someone else’s life. I know it may sound crazy but in the beginning I never thought I would ever be a mother or get married. I vision myself still living in New York City, modeling and thriving as a top fashion designer. Jet setting all around the world while remaining quite humble. Funny how things change in a blink of an eye. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t regret being a mother, I just wish I could have done a lot of things differently. Then I would I have had almost everything I wanted. I guess it’s never too late or is it?

January 18, 2008

“Envy shoots at others and wounds herself”.

Life can be crazy at times and I try to handle things in a positive manner, but there is always something ready to test my patients.

November 29, 2007

“The man who does as he pleases is seldom pleased with what he does”.

I was talking with a friend the other day, telling them that I felt that this year has been like a metamorphosis for me and I know the best times are ahead. I’ve dealt with a lot this year but I continue to remain strong and grounded, thanks to the love and support of special friends and family. They are my rock!!!

I’m starting to really enjoy my life now that I’m learning to balance things out. It’s not easy being a mom and business woman, trying to devote just as much time for both. Of course my children are my number one priority, they are the loves of my life and they make me sooooo proud !!! My daughter who has inherit my artistic abilities (she has amazing talent) wants to get into the fashion design and marketing field. My son is my all American !!! So into sports, playing soccer, football and now he’s doing the basketball training. I love watching football with him because he’s so passionate about it (even though he turned coat and no longer roots for my team the Steelers. . . he’s now a Browns fan. . .YUCK!!!. . . LOL)

Regarding the business, well I’ve been driving myself crazy coming up with marketing ideas to generate some business. I think I maybe over thinking and that may be the problem. I’m trying to find a way to focus on one thing at a time, instead of doing what I usually do, trying to do everything at once. Usually when that happens, nothing gets done. . .lol, but I’m learning and trying to buckle down.

It does help to be around positive people who influence you in a wonderful way and I’ve been meeting some amazing people. I’m proud to say that Columbus has some amazingly talented people here and it’s time for everyone to know. That just reminds me, I need to find out if Columbus has some type of fashion council representing the many talented indie fashion designers in our area.

Now time for me to prepare for a wild weekend (have to learn how to tame my naughty side. . . .well that’s me, sweet, lovable, classy but a little somewhat naughty. I can’t help it, there’s many sides to me. . lol). . . .party on dudes!!!!!

November 25, 2007

“We cannot really be for somthing we don’t understand” .

This is an apology entry to all of my friends and associates who have been contacted by G M. The guy is insane. Here’s the story. This guy made contact with me through the internet. At the time he seemed nice with a good head on his shoulder. We exchanged a few e-mails and talked on the phone a couple times. At one point he convinced me to come and visit him which I agreed at the time. After having a few more phone conversations with him, I started to get uncomfortable feelings about him so two weeks before I was suppose to go visit him, I told him that I wouldn’t be able to make it because of a family situation. Well to make a long story short, he wasn’t happy about it and expect me to pay for the nonrefundable ticket he purchased. At first, I thought about paying him but then thought to myself why should I pay for something he planned. That’s like taking money from my family and wasting it on something I didn’t want nor wanted to use. So I told him that I was not going to pay. Now this insane person has been sending me 40 to 90 e-mails a day demanding that I pay him and now he’s threatening to send e-mail to the people I know (which I know a lot of you are going to have a field day with this. . . . . honestly guys I didn’t know this guy would go about things the way he did. If he had approached me like a gentleman, I would have gladly paid for the ticket). If he has bombarded you with e-mails for this I apologize profusely. It’s insane I know and I suggest that you go ahead and block his e-mail. If you’re unable to block his e-mail and he keeps sending you e-mails, then I would suggest taking legal action. I don’t know, what do you think I should do?? Again, I’m sorry in advance for the drama. See most of you soon, I know you’re heads are reeling from this situation. 

Hugs and Kisses to you all !!!

Will give you updates on more happier and entertaining events going on within the next couple of days. Have a wonderful week !!!

November 5, 2007

“Don’t worry about knowing people, just make yourself worth knowing”.

It’s been a busy several weeks and I’ve learned during this time that I need to develop some organizational skills. Anyone willing to help me out. . . .lol

I have to say that since my birthday which was October the 21st, I’ve let my hair down and kinda let a bit of my wildness escape so to speak and enjoying every moment of it!!! I’ve been hanging out with friends I’ve met through the Meet-up group and My Space down in the downtown area, mainly at the Spice and Sugar bars really enjoying myself while socializing, networking and meeting new people. I have to say that both Sugar and Spice reminds me of some of the bars and clubs I frequent when I’m in New York. They both provide a nice, classy, friendly atmosphere and the people are non-pretentious. I just love it!!! Of course there are other places I have yet to venture, but right now they’re on top of my favorite list.

Socializing aside, I’m keeping busy with setting up photo shoots (Photo Updates Coming Soon !!), working on marketing ideas for my newest business venture. Still slowly but surely working on my clothing designs, not sure what I’m going to do with the modeling group project. I may just put it aside for the time being till I figure out how I want to re-approach it, but I will continue seeking out models for the showing of my clothing designs. As far as my love life well . . . . . . . I’m still working on it. . .lol

October 11, 2007

“” Tears flow freely from the fountain of a love-filled heart “.

You know sometimes the littlest things can mean so much!!! I was having a bad day yesterday because I let someone rub me the wrong way. By the end of the day I was feeling much better because of close friends being there for me when I need them

 Meanwhile, I have some work to do. So I better get my creative juices flowing and hop to it. I have sites to update, marketing plans to create, business cards to get printed. Fabrics calling out my name to be sewn, pets in need of care and my children needing me constantly. I LOVE IT!!!!! Now where’s my coffee?????

Sept. 13, 2007

“He who will not command his thoughts will soon lose command of his actions”.

My life has taken me on several journey’s and still I’m trying to figure it all out. One that I know is that we continue to learn as we get older and hopefully a little wiser. I think right now I am in the process of trying to discover who I truly am. I’ve been other things to other people and in the mist of it all, I haven’t really been there for myself. I’ve discovered that many times we get so wrapped up in doing what makes others happy that we tend to forget what makes us happy and then there’s confusion.

It’s time for me to sit back and think about what truly makes me happy (other than being a mother to two wonderful sometimes nerve racking children. . lol). Take charge, get organized (that’s going to be a task in itself. . lol), forget about the past, live for the present and the future and start visualizing success in love, life and happiness!!!

Now if only I can get that damn cable company to start laying fiber optic cable in my area so I can finally do away with this dialup cramp. I’m really not wanting to pay $500 for installation of a satellite then to turn around and have to pay $49.95 per month for faster internet service. Hmmm, can’t have the ying without the yang

Aug 10, 2007

“It’s best to avoid negative people. their negativity tends to rub off on you and bring you down”

It amazes me how people like to tear others down or hurt them in some form or another. I try to ignore and avoid people like that but every now and then, I let them get the best of me since I’m such a sensitive person.

 Whenever this happens I either pull out certain books to read such as “Awaken The Giant Within” by Anthony Robbins, “Feeling Good - The New Mood Therapy” by David D. Burns, M.D. , listen to my Joel Osteen’s “Your Best Life Now” CD set or recite the following poem by Maya Angelou to myself :

Still I Rise

You may write me down in history

With your bitter, twisted lies,

You may trod me in the very dirt

But still, like dust, I’ll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?

Why are you beset with gloom?

‘Cause I walk like I’ve got oil wells

Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,

With the certainty of tides,

Just like hopes springing high,

Still I rise.

Didi you want to see me broken?

Bowed head and lowered eyes?

Shoulders falling down like teardrops,

Weakened by my soulful cries,

Does my haughtiness offend you?

Don’t you take it awful hard

“Cause I laugh like I’ve got gold mines

Diggin’ in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,

You may cut me with your eyes,

You may kill me with your hatefulness,

But still, like air, I’ll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?

Does it come as a surprise

That I dance like I’ve go diamonds

At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history’s shame

I rise

I’m a black ocean, leaping and wide,

Welling and swelling I hear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear

I rise

Into a daybreak that’s wondrously clear

I rise

Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,

I am the dream and the hope of the slave.

I rise

I rise

I rise

July 24, 2004

I’ve finally recovered from the weekends activities. Over the weekend I attended the Haunt Group Shoot which was held here in Columbus, Ohio. I have to say that I was very impressed by the way it was organized. Kudos to Laura of Laura Dark Photography and Eric of Fotographia Fantastique for a job well done. Had a wonderful time!!! Enjoyed meeting and working with some great photographers. Along with seeing new faces. It was a blast!!! Will post photos from the shoot as they come in.

I know a few photographers would have love getting pictures of me feeding the horses that we board. Along with my two golden retrievers and my son’s pet rabbit. All the animals wanted attention, so I gave each one individual attention which they seem to appreciate and did get a little jealous having to share my affection. I guess when children and animals like you, you have a good soul or so I’ve been told.

July 18, 2007

Forgiveness: Forgiveness has been called the virtue we profess to believe, fail to practice, and neglect to preach.

June 27, 2007

Well, didn’t need to search too hard for inspiration, a good nights sleep did the trick!!!! Ah, I guess ask and you shall receive. Now to find the man of my dreams. . . lol

Anyway woke up this morning bright eyed and bushy tailed ready to sketch out some designs. The ideas flowed soooo freely. Now to bring them all to life. Ah, so much fun, especially the part where I’m trying to psyche myself into believing that I love to sew. Oh well, c’est la vie!!! I have to do what I need to do in order to achieve and be successful, right??!!

I still have to come up with some creative ideas for my up and coming shoots. Then there’s the table book and calendar I’m thinking about doing. Need to come up with ideas for them.

June 26, 2007

Either I need to treat myself to a day spa or take a weekend vacation somewhere nice in order to regenerate my thoughts and ideas. I must get my designs completed so I can plan an event as my introduction to the design world. Model Sabrina turned fashion designer takes the world by storm. . .sounds good to me. Now, to make it happen !!

 I need something or someone to give me the inspiration I need or maybe I should look deep within myself for it. Hmmmm, maybe meditation is the key : )

June 21, 2007

I am seriously thinking about semi retiring or just retiring from the modeling and concentrating solely on fashion designing. I’m really not sure at this point. Everything seems to be up in the air right now as I try to focus on one thing at a time.

May 28, 2007

Well the Memorial Day Weekend is coming to an end and it’s back to the old routine, which I don’t mind because there’s nothing really routine about my life. Sitting here wondering what I should type into my journal. Hmmm, should I mention how my weekend went? How on Friday I took my son to see Shrek 3, planned to go out that evening but stayed home instead and surf the internet.

Saturday, I attended the Springfield Group Shoot hosted by Athena - Goddess Images. I have to say that she is sooo adorable and talented. Not only does she models but she’s a very talented photographer, who’s going to school to study graphic design as well and she’s only 19!!! 

The group shoot went very well. It was held in an industrial building, which had many creative backgrounds for the photographers and models in attendance.

I believe this is the forth Group Shoot I’ve attending and their growing on me because their great for networking, promoting oneself, meeting new people, working with new talent, making business contacts and discovering possible new talent for various projects I have in the works. Plus they tend to be lots of fun and I get great pics to add to my portfolio.

I did have plans for after the group shoot, but they fell through, so I ended meeting some friends for a few drinks. Had a great time and behaved myself. . . . hehehe

Sunday and Monday did some grilling. Ate great food, drank great wine and relaxed outside with family as the sun played peek a boo. Now tomorrow, I will be working off the grilled food from this weekend . . . .lol

May 21, 2007

Attended a group shoot yesterday, May 20th. It was the Garage Glamour shoot and it was done here on the south side of Columbus in Grove City. It turned out very well thanks to the host and model Patricia, along with the sponsor of the event APT Studios/Jim Bunker.

I had the pleasure of meeting and working with some wonderful and talented people. From photographers, models, to makeup artists along with stylist local and abroad. The atmosphere was quite fun and relaxing. Everyone got along very well and you know me, I’m a people person, so of course I was going to make it a point to try and talk to everyone, showing off my charming personality. No diva attitude here darlings, I’m too sweet for that. . . lol

Have to remember to give the grill cook kudos for the food served. Of course, I wished I had fed myself a little more because I was starving after returning home from the shoot. So I ended up raiding the refrigerator. Almost finishing off my pint of strawberry Hagen Daz ice cream which is my fav !!! Some how, some way we’re going to put Columbus on the art, fashion and entertainment map.

Starting with the local businesses, promotional and advertisement agencies utilizing the abundance of talent here in Columbus and it’s surrounding areas.

The time has come for Columbus to become a major metropolitan city !!!

May 1, 2007

Ah Spring Time

Today I enjoyed the nice sunny breezy spring weather. Listening to the beautiful sounds of birds chirping within the trees as I sit in the backyard lounging with my work beside me. Every now and then I would get up and gaze at my garden because I am so fascinated with the grown of new things. Yes, Spring is my favorite Season !! For me, it means the “Beginning A New” !!

April 27, 2007

Why ??

I sometimes wonder why my heart can’t follow my head or vice versa. Maybe one of these days they will both be in sync with each other